Do you have secrets that you plan to take to the grave? Are there things in your past that you want to bury and hope no one ever finds out about them?
Everyone has secrets. My mother-in-law had an undisclosed recipe for Rum Balls that she swore she would take with her when she died. And that she did. No one ever figured out her secret ingredient. But what good did it do for her not to share it so we could continue to enjoy her wonderful dessert?
There are secrets we hide, never discuss, and hope no one ever finds out. We keep secrets to protect those we love or to prevent people from thinking less of us.
Sometimes we keep secrets because we would be too ashamed to admit the truth. We may even lie to keep up the facade. "No, I would never do that!" When, in fact, we did.
Maybe we found out something about someone that could destroy them if the truth came out. We choose to keep that knowledge to ourselves. At times, it may feel like it is burning a hole in our psyche because we want to share it -- but we don't. Or do we? Are you someone your friends can trust to keep their secret? Or will you reveal it if you feel it is necessary?
Maybe we have a bad habit who was told by our
doctor that we MUST quit. We continue to do it, hoping no one will discover the
truth and we rationalize and lie to ourselves that it is only hurting
us. But when we are hiding things that can potentially hurt us, we hurt
those who love us. We assume it is no one's business when, in fact, it
could be unfair to keep such a secret to ourselves. When discovered, it could
hurt the ones we care about.
Have you ever told someone a secret and then
wish you had not? I remember sharing a secret with a counselor who later
told the entire group, using me as an example. I was mortified and he had
no authority to do that - but it was too late. Sometimes, we don't share
for that reason - we cannot fully trust the person to whom we are revealing our
innermost mysteries.
So, why did I do it? The biggest reason was that my "secrets" and how I coped with them could be a great help to someone going through something similar.
I
discovered that when I revealed the things I wanted to bury I had tremendous
relief. It helped people understand why I am the way I am or why I rise to the
defense of someone going through something similar. It brought me closer
to family and friends when they saw my vulnerable side.
How do you feel about revealing your secrets? Do you wish you could but
feel the truth may hurt someone or yourself?